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Don't let fear of insecurity stop you from trying new things. Believe in yourself. Do what you love. And most importantly, be kind to others even if you don't like them.  - Stacy London

Have you ever been in a situation where you don't feel good about yourself? I do feel it when I'm alone in my room, while waiting for the bus and most of the time in the shower. In today's post I'm going to write about my insecurities. Note that I'm writing this not to get all of the compliments and supportive words, I just want to share what I feel and it is okay if you feel the same way as I am.

        As a person with tanned skin, I'm very observant about every part of my body. Sometimes I would hide my hands in my pocket whenever I go out especially when I'm wearing a white top and avoid mirrors at the mall. I would also hide my hands in most of my pictures. I don't wear full face makeup or anything related to finding the product that suits my skin tone when I go out because first, it's hard I've tried it and second I'll be looking ashy and disgusting. I used to upload pictures of me in makeup but I hated it and deleted those pictures because I kind of feel fake like that's not me, that dark-circle-less girl in the picture is lying. I'm not saying that people who wear makeup are fake or anything, they look so beautiful I swear but when it comes to me, yucks! I dislike my feet too, this may sound weird to you but they turn so dry and dark. I'm not skinny nor am I fat, I'm just average. There are some parts of me that I dislike a lot like my thighs, arms, cheeks and dark circles. I just keep telling myself that Allah created me this way so that I won't be doing things that are forbidden or worse than what I'm doing now.
        I told my family about this and cried. I told them how much I hate myself, my skin. They always soothe me with compliments and tell me to accept myself for who I am. It's easier said than done. To be real honest, I've never taken any compliments as something that can make me love myself even more or something to be proud of because some people complimented in a sarcastic way and I have a trust issue. I appreciate those who really mean it though. But for me, praises are like the wind, passes by and gone. 

        I can be both slow and fast learner. Sometimes I find it hard to stay focus on what the person is teaching or talking and I will lose track of what's going on around me. That's because I think a lot, like a lot. I daydream a lot too that sometimes people will notice it. Basically, I will think of everything and mostly the things that make me feel down.
        As an Architecture student, I have to polish my drawing/sketching, model-making and other skills to make sure I do better in assignments and for the future. For me, all of my friends are so talented and they know well about everything and what they want. I'm like a lost cat that has no ideas what's going on. I kind of feel left behind. I have to run and speed up instead of walking to catch up with others. I'm not sure if I'm so blur or that's normal or I'm actually way far behind the others. But I know that's how student life is, we are not always on top.
        I feel insecure in a way people can be so out of the box and create their own shape while I'm stuck looking for a door to go out of the box. I definitely will work harder and never give up but sometimes these are the things that make me sad and feel so down.

Other than all the things mentioned above, I don't really know how to express my love towards my friends or family members verbally and physically like a hug or anything. I'm so scared they'll think I don't appreciate them as much and selfish. I just don't know how. I don't really say 'I love you' to my friends or family, that's just not me and it will turn out awkward as heck. And whenever my friends or family are sick or not feeling well I don't know how to show how worried I am, I'll just end up asking 'are you okay?' or 'have you taken the medicine?' once and that's it. I wish I could take care of them, give them the medication, help them in managing themselves when they are sick. Sorry for being so dramatic I just wish I can do that and not making it awkward for myself.

        I wish one day I can overcome my insecurities and be carefree. I want to feel good about myself too just like other pretty, confident girls out there. I want to be happy with who I am but for now, I'm still stuck with all of the dislikes I have in me.

Thank you for reading, till then <3

In this tutorial the app/website that we're going to be using is Canva. You can use other phone apps as well but I would like to suggest this app because it provides you the icons suitable for your highlight covers.

1. Go to Canva (the link should direct you to all designs page)

2. Scroll down until you find the Marketing section then look for Blog Graphic and
   click on it.

3. Click Elements on the left tab

4. Click Grids and choose the first picture displayed

5. Click on the picture then you can customise the colour of your picture by clicking
    the colour box on the top left then choose [+]

6. To add an icon, click Graphics then search for your desired icon (eg: laptop, car,

7. To add text, simply click on the Text and click Add a heading then you can
    customise it using the menu bar at the top section

8. Click the button next to Share button to download as JPG


1. Go to your profile

2. Tap on your highlight then choose more and tap on edit hightlight.

3. Tap edit cover and choose the picture that you've saved.

You have to repeat these steps for other highlights that you want to include on your profile.

There you go, now your highlights are looking neat and pretty!

Thank you for reading and don't forget to try <3

Assalamualaikum and hi! I just finished my first semester and been waiting for the right time to get back to writing and give you whole new contents in this blog. This time I come out with Instagram editing post since some of you might be wondering how I did most of my aesthetic-random type of Instagram stories.

Ever since I started creating those type of edits there are quite a number of people keep asking me how I did this and that and some even started doing the same thing I did and I'm more than happy to see many people being creative with editing!

You may refer to the pictures below for some of the edits I've done for my ig story (more in my Instagram highlight under 'edits') Note that I just did the editing job and most of the pictures aren't mine.

First thing first this post is about the editing merely using the tools in the Instagram app itself and at the end of this post, I'll also insert my favorite apps that I've been using to edit my pictures.

1. Word Blocks
This method is suitable for you to add a various range of colors to the text to make your story more pop-out and colorful.

Here's a simple one I did where I combine 3 range of colors. You can also use rainbow colors and a combination of pastel colors as well. You just have to go to the font icon on top right of your screen, type one letter and tap on the background icon on the top left of your screen then choose any color that you prefer for the background.

2. Multiple-range colored words

I'm not sure what to name it so I just simply created the name above lol. I guess many still don't know about this but it's really interesting and tricky at the same time. By using this method you can turn your words into something colorful and nice.

After you have typed in your words, highlight all of them then tap and hold the highlighted words (from the beginning) together with the color that you want. Next, move both fingers synchronizing the movement so that your words will turn into multiple color range. You can watch the video below if you still don't understand (I'm bad at explaining, sorry)

3. Solid/Blurry Background
For this method, you can either do the solid background(left) of the blurry background(right). Solid background will enable viewers to see only the erased part while viewers can still see the blurry background and the erased part for the second picture.

 All you have to do is tap on the pen icon, choose marker then tap and hold your screen until it turns into the color that you have chosen. Next, tap the eraser icon then rub the area that you want to let your viewers see. Same goes to the blurry background, choose the highlight icon next to marker then repeat the same step.

4. Shadow

This is the common method people usually used in their story.  If you found it boring and too mainstream to do that, you can play with different contra colors like yellow and pink, blue and yellow, yellow and red and many more depending on your creativity.

The apps that I frequently used to edit all of my pictures for Instagram story are HypeType, Inshot, Picsart and Phonto. All of these apps helped me in combining the pictures, to insert song, sketch and also contain many types of fonts. The key to having nice, aesthetic and interesting pictures is creativity. I know it's kind of hard to create this kind of thing at first and you tend to typically follow how people edited their photos.

Before I started this to be honest, I found them so ugly that sometimes I would delete the story that I've posted. As time past by and I've found my own aesthetic in editing, I enjoy doing every piece of it. Those nice words and praise that I received really make me want to create more.

Lastly, find your own aesthetic and be creative <3

Since this is just the basic editing ideas, would you like to learn more detail editing tutorial about the steps and how I created the pictures using the apps mentioned above? Yay or nay?